Name:Jake Country:United States State:Michigan Birthday:4/25/1987 Gender:Male
Interests:MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST.
Friends. Music. Hugs. Bonfires. Friends. Guitar. Singing. Being Rediculous. Fireworks. Friends. The Sky. Playing Frisbee. Long Car Rides With FRIENDS. MUSIC! Expertise:Playing Guitar in AS BOUND WITH THEM.
Generally loving people.
Having the yearning to know everything there is to know about music. Occupation:Student Industry:Art
I wrote this a few weeks ago after reading E. E. Cummings for 2 hours straight. (trying to find a text for my Senior Project, which is already proving to be quite a task.)
Anyways...since I have nothing better to write about... here it is:
As for myself
Concerning you
Hope is torture
To know not your mind
But delusions allow
To imagine myself
With in my arms a wonderful you
And near my lips yours red divine
Where on my shoulder your cheek rest
In my devious self destructive deceiving hopeful mind
To visions permit but sight forbid
Longs me for the stale taste
Of bottles and ashes on my lips
(In the morning)
When broken phone lies
On bed stands not I’s
My AnxiousLeftOnNervousExcitement
Remains awaiting reply
OH. and on another note... It blows my mind how you can think someone is a good person for such a long time and then in a couple weeks realize that they are one of the shadiest most deceitful persons you've ever known... seriously.... I don't know how you could live that way and be okay with yourself.
I'm broke and struggling to find ways to make money. I spent over 4 hours today at a coffee shop (where I still am) trying to do this whole "booking" thing and wondering if any of these attempts will actually result in a show. So far I've contacted about 20 venues and herd back from 2 with "no"s... it's kinda frustrating. But I guess it's occupying my time....
I've been lonely lately.
It's not like I'm not ever around people. I mean I never really spend an entire day by myself... I've just been having these lonely moments where I start to feel kinda weird and anxious about not constantly celebrating the existence of those around me and not being celebrated in return... it's weird I guess...
I'm trying to ride my bike more. I suck at self motivation, but when I do actually get out and do that it feels great. I love being outdoors.
... on that note I need to get out of this coffee shop before I go insane.
it's 5 a.m. and i can't fall asleep. and i've been sleep deprived lately too.
that longing for good old fashion romance is coming back strong. i've just been laying here thinking about the things i miss about being in a relationship. there's a part of me that wants so badly to have a girl in my life again. someone to walk hand in hand with down the street. to dance with when there's no music playing. to look into each others eyes with undying naive adoration. to be unashamedly infatuated with.
i'm a sap.
my best friend is getting married in 2 weeks. freaking crazy. and awesome. i finally got fit for my tux today. perhaps that is the source of inspiration for this impulsive return of romantic longing.
on another note. Wilco is so good. I cannot wait for their new CD to come out. Also. Listening to music in a silent room by yourself with headphones is far superior to any other style of music listening.
